Changes

Guess it's time for my monthly update. So much for every week!

I read somewhere that every pregnancy is different. I kinda agreed but thought, really, how can that be, I'm the same person. I'm the kind of person who looks around me and sees what other people are doing to gauge what is and isn't normal. I looked to my mom and my sister for what I though my labour and delivery would be (HUGE MISTAKE!!) and for other pregnancy symptoms. I am now a firm believer in that every pregnancy is different. This little one (I have affectionately nicknamed Little Critter) is already different from Abby. Pretty much from the get go. I knew I was pregnant long before I got a positive result. (My pants had become a slight snug so I was really hoping I was pregnant) I was also sore and tired. With Abby, I didn't gain a pound for quite a few months. It took awhile to get sick but once I did, it was pretty bad but only in the mornings. With this one, I am sick all the time. Except when I'm eating or asleep (I think). I'm already into my maternity clothes - though not all of it fits just yet.

And this time, I will make it different. I'm going to (try) be more easy-going and less defensive about everything. Yeesh, I was looking back at some of my old posts when Abby was just born. Can you tell I was a little unsure and insecure about what I was doing? Every little bit of advise I took as a personal insult on how I was raising Abby. I figured that since I had never done this before, I must not know what I was doing and therefore I should listen to all of it. Even the stuff that contradicted the other stuff. I remember being so scared about Tummy Time and if I didn't do it, Abby would never learn independence and she'd join a gang at 15 and get pregnant and end up on jail! Yep, a few months ago I read that Tummy Time can be dangerous because the baby's neck muscles are strong enough and it's damaging and scary for the baby. Thanks. This time I'm not reading any books. Especially ones that make me feel inadequate. At least that's my goal. We'll see how that goes.

So that's it for now. I'm going to go and lay on the couch and maybe eat something bad for me.