Today

I've been working full time for the last 3 1/2 weeks and I didn't realize the impact it had on me until last night. I was lying in bed, trying to sleep, thinking about tomorrow. It's my first day off since going back to work after Christmas (not including weekends). I was thinking about going to Bible Study and how everyone is going to react when they see Abby walking around. All of the sudden, I got this overwhelming feeling of...well, I missed her. She's 20 feet away, sleeping but I miss her. I can't wait until tomorrow so we can hang out. I've never felt like this before. I've never been so gushy. It's kinda nice. When Abby was born, I didn't have that immediate head over heels in love with my baby feeling. It took awhile to slowly fall in love with her. But now that it's here, it's so strong, sometimes it surprises me.

And now that it's over, I'm glad I had those last 3 1/2 weeks of work. Now I know what it's like and that I don't want it - even though I thought I did. I know that Abby loves going to the Baby-sitter and she takes good care of her, but she's mine. I want some of that fun too. I can't wait for it to begin!