New Normal

These have been confusing times. A lot is up in the air. And now that I’m well into Week 2 of working at home with no clear end in sight, I have to face the truth...that this just may be my normal. 

And I have been struggling with it. I don’t know whether it’s the uncertainty and the temporary feel of everything but I haven’t felt 100% lately. I’ve had no motivation to do anything and I’m feeling lost. So I need some routine. And I’ve found myself thinking that some exercise might be a good idea. There was a time (when I had a lot of time on my hands) when I exercised every morning, or at least every other day. And I felt better. I had energy and I felt like I was accomplishing something. And this has nothing to do with the fact that my leggings were too tight for me the other day! 

So, maybe next week I’ll think of some good workouts, I’ll set my alarm a little earlier and find the motivation I need to get my lazy butt out of bed. Because I need a lot of motivation. A lot. 

Even as I type this I’m not too optimistic. I’ve felt this way before. I’ve made plans before and didn’t follow through. I have to think about this as more than just a lack of motivation. I really need to find some reason to follow through. Maybe it’s some type of accountability will pull me through. I can hope.