Random Thoughts
1. Every evening, I get the coffee made for the next day and set the timer so the coffee starts in time for breakfast. Everytime I make the coffee, the same thought runs through my head. When I worked at the last place I worked, part of my job was to make the coffee at the beginning of the day and to clean all the cups and coffee maker at the end of the day. Not a big job, easy in fact. However, there was a day where we all had a meeting because they felt my work wasn't up to snuff. (It wasn't a good meeting.) One of the complaints was how I wasn't cleaning the coffee pot as I should even though I had been "told repeatedly." (Oh, I was cleaning it but that's not the point.) I sat through most of that meeting in shock with my mouth half opened. When I think back to it, I still feel attacked, my fingers are actually shaking now. Now, I don't work there anymore and for the most part, the matter is closed. The problem arises every evening when I make the coffee at home. I am reminded of that meeting and all the feelings of being attacked come rushing back. As soon as I start making the coffee to the point where it is set, I relive that meeting. I can leave the coffee and forget but every night, it's the same memory. My hope is that talking about it, I can go through one evening without that memory. Maybe I should start remembering something pleasant while I make coffee and perhaps that will get stuck in my head instead of the bad memory.
2. I have often thought of putting Abby to sleep in terms of a car ride. Sometimes the drive is long, but you have enough gas so it's okay. Some nights the light comes on but you get there just in time. Other nights, the trip is long and you didn't fill the tank full enough. And yet some nights the trip is short so the full tank of gas is hardly used. But the rare time comes when even though the trip wasn't all that long, you still didn't have enough gas to get there. That's why it's nice to have a back up tank to take over when you limp to the side of the road. I've been pretty moody these last few days and last night all I wanted to do was watch this show. Abby was "talking" loudly and not stopping. I did not have enough gas. So Mark took her upstairs and they played together. During that time, I was able to fill up and the rest of the evening was great.
3. You know you've got cabin fever when a trip to the dump is an exciting outing. We did yard work on Saturday and we took all the leaves and junk to the dump. Mark said that he'd go alone but I begged him to take me and Abby too. He thought it was a little weird but I was happy to go. I just didn't want to go back into that empty house again. I have an empty house all week, it's nice to get out when I can especially if Mark is there too.
4. The last couple days, Abby skips her morning nap. But she sleeps through the nights and has a long nap in the afternoon - yesterday for almost 3 hours. Last night Mark sneezed and woke up Abby. She's sleeping now.
2. I have often thought of putting Abby to sleep in terms of a car ride. Sometimes the drive is long, but you have enough gas so it's okay. Some nights the light comes on but you get there just in time. Other nights, the trip is long and you didn't fill the tank full enough. And yet some nights the trip is short so the full tank of gas is hardly used. But the rare time comes when even though the trip wasn't all that long, you still didn't have enough gas to get there. That's why it's nice to have a back up tank to take over when you limp to the side of the road. I've been pretty moody these last few days and last night all I wanted to do was watch this show. Abby was "talking" loudly and not stopping. I did not have enough gas. So Mark took her upstairs and they played together. During that time, I was able to fill up and the rest of the evening was great.
3. You know you've got cabin fever when a trip to the dump is an exciting outing. We did yard work on Saturday and we took all the leaves and junk to the dump. Mark said that he'd go alone but I begged him to take me and Abby too. He thought it was a little weird but I was happy to go. I just didn't want to go back into that empty house again. I have an empty house all week, it's nice to get out when I can especially if Mark is there too.
4. The last couple days, Abby skips her morning nap. But she sleeps through the nights and has a long nap in the afternoon - yesterday for almost 3 hours. Last night Mark sneezed and woke up Abby. She's sleeping now.
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2. I TOTALLY get the bad memory association thing. There have been a TON of little tasks around the house that have reminded me of horrible past memories like arranging the silverware in the drawer one time after moving back to Flin Flon. That aunt I told you about had spent an hour rearranging her cupboards one night, so when I remembered this upon moving my own silverware around in my own home, I started crying. There are other stories like that. We should talk.
3. I was JUST talking to Kyle tonight about how I should take some major, super advantage of you while on maternity leave. I never knew you felt so house-bound, but I miss you!! So, I am now making it my mission to phone you every day I have off and plop my arse on your couch or drag you and de baby out for girl time. We can go for coffee, hang out in the shops on Main Street, go be Wal-rats, come to my house, drive around, go to a park--whatever you can name, we will do it.
And come out to my band night thing tomorrow. It's only about 1/2 hour, there will be pie and coffee, you can bring Abby (unless you need the break), and it's only an information thing, so you can just sit and pretend like you want to play a wind instrument, deal?
Ok, so this comment turned into more of an email, but whatevs. Have your people call my people, we'll do lunch!