Fix it

I’ve always heard that people can be addicted to their phones. And while I believe that, I never considered that I am one of those people. 

However,

Today, I was preparing a document for my boss. One that I had previously prepared several times. (It took about 5 or 6 drafts to get it right) I was about to hand him yet another draft when anxiety hit. Nothing major, just that pause that makes you hesitate. I looked down and saw my phone sticking out of my purse. I pushed the side button just to see the screen. It was like a wave of relief washed over me. And I felt like this is what it must be like for a smoker to take that first puff. 

So, what do I do with this information? Do I “cut back”? Do I try and quit or do I simply accept that checking phone relieves anxiety? Is that a bad thing? Am I addicted to my phone? 

I’ve decided since it doesn’t really affect anyone and it’s not adversely affecting my life, I’m gonna let it go. After all, we all need something to get us through the day. 

There’s beauty everywhere. Except in February. Trust me, it ain’t pretty, it just looks that way.