All by Myself!

For the first time in two years, I am sleeping alone. It's so weird. We've managed to go two years, three months and two days not spending the night apart but I guess the streak had to end sometime. As for me, I'm doing alright. During the day, it's like he's at school so I wouldn't see him anyway. And in the evenings, I just pretend that he's on the computer playing Civ with Matt and Brian. But then at night, I know he's gone. So I bring Dee Dee in with me and we snuggle. Well, until she starts snoring or licking her chops in that really annoying way. Then she gets the boot. Thursday night she was really good. She was quiet and still and we fell asleep. I woke up at 4:00am and she was gone. She doesn't usually sleep through the night anyway so I wasn't too surprised. Last night, she got the boot. I wonder what will happen tonight. I hope she's good. I like that extra presence in the room.

I realized just how much I depend on Mark. Thursday night, I could hear weird noises (house settling, crows on the roof) and I kept thinking, what something happens? What if the car breaks down? What if I get into an accident? and the strangest one...What if the door falls off the house? I kid you not. I actually thought that. The door was making noises because of the cold and this thought flashed in my mind that what if it falls off? What would I do? I couldn't possibly put it back on! I would be so cold. Where would I go? It didn't occur to me at the time that that was such a stupid thing to worry about. I'll be glad when he gets home to tell me when I'm being silly.
I haven't heard from him yet so I assume everything is going well. I'll keep ya posted!